The details get washed by our fast paced lives until days go by in a blur and everything in them fades into long sleepless nights. Insomnia draws out my days and forces me to struggle awake after my mind has finally shut down. But, I try to stop and see the details in the smallest things, to pause and ingest sheer beauty.
Still, the struggle is in slowing down, to find out that maybe I’m running from the silence that I admittedly despise. It’s like we want to be distracted and numbed long enough to escape from the long-awaited, uncomfortable pause.
Why must we be so busy? Because it’s easier than sitting still and just being. I do not like to sit still and just be, to accept the moment the way that it is and to be aware of all the details in present tense. Our minds are wired to go inward and backward, to get stuck in yesterday and to overlook the beauty in the tiniest details of today.
Past tense is not a way to live. It leaves you longing for answers and yearning for a time machine to take us back. But we can’t change our flashbacks, and as characters in our own story, our past has made us who we are at this very moment.
So, although it is hard some days to stop all the noise…I should, you should…we all should embrace the quiet.
Stop and see the details…the beauty. Know that if we keep falling backwards in time, we can’t see and appreciate what is right in front of us.
There’s nothing like living in this very moment.
After all, we are not victims of circumstance, but survivors of our own personal story.